Deconstruction and Reconstruction of the Personality

I was noticing during meditation the partial or sometimes full deconstruction of the personality, depending on the depth of meditation.

Within deepest meditation, the personality completely deconstructs.

There is no Other. 

There is no inner, there is no outer. 

There is no one home. 

All-That-Is, and All-That-Is-Not, undifferentiated.   

Empty Fullness. 

Entheogens can do this as well, usually with a little less control. 

What is interesting is when the meditation session ends, the personality seems to spontaneously pop back into existence. 

But, each time you deconstruct the personality, there is a chance to reassemble this personality in a slightly different form. 

One possibility is to let go of unneeded emotional defenses.  This might raise you up on the evolutionary scale.

http://enlightenedmdphd.blogspot.com/2013/02/just-stranger-in-strange-land-part-2.html

There is also the possibility of uncovering all sorts of shadows, those things you may have stuffed away in that long black bag you carry behind you.

http://enlightenedmdphd.blogspot.com/2013/02/taming-monsters-and-dragons.html

When shadows are uncovered there may be anxiety or even panic. 

Perhaps you may need to do some psychological or spiritual work for resolution. 

Something simple such as journaling might help.  Consider a self-guided visualization practice.  Maybe EFT, or EMDR could be helpful. 

Sometimes you just need some outside help.  A good psychotherapist can be invaluable to help to reconstruct the personality. 

Remember to forge your own path.

http://enlightenedmdphd.blogspot.com/2013/03/happiness-prescription.html

And use the 3 Commandments, in strict order, to test for truth:

http://enlightenedmdphd.blogspot.com/2013/04/enlightenment-part-5-final-secret.html 

        1-There is only one Source.

                    2-Love everything.

                              3-Enjoy yourself.

Then relax into clear seeing and enjoy this wonderful unfolding. 

Who Am I?

My wife was musing the other morning about a group of monks who were highly successful and known worldwide for their product, without using any advertising, just word of mouth.  The author then posited they were so successful because they answered the question “Who am I?”  Therefore, they followed their values and skills accordingly.

So she asked me how do I answer the question “Who am I?” 

That is always an interesting question!   

My first response is that the only true answer is, “we really can never know who we are.  It is the greatest mystery.” 

This is the central question used in an inner enquiry method call the “Enlightenment Intensive.” 

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enlightenment_Intensive

For me this question has been an important and wonderful contemplation within meditation. 

However, always the philosopher, I also added that the closest I can get to describing, “Who am I,” using words, might be the following:   

Although we think we are this constant “self.”  We are actually an ever-changing ebb and flow of energy as a manifestation of Source.

Source wants to appreciate itself, so “All That Is “arose so Source can hide away from Itself, and therefore, enjoy the mystery of Itself.

http://enlightenedmdphd.blogspot.com/2013/03/just-bags-of-saltwater-carrying-ocean.html

This reminds me of the book and movie, “The River Why.” 

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_River_Why

Titus, the philosopher, is using a metaphor to explain to Gus, the fisherman, his relationship to Source (soul, essence).  He uses the metaphor of the fishing pole that Gus made and named Rodney.  Titus explains that the fishing pole is as aware of Gus as Gus is aware of Source.  It is a mystery that cannot easily be explained.  Titus at the end of this conversation says he swiped this metaphor from the great philosopher Plotinus. 

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plotinus

So, for this New Year I wish for each of you a wonderful contemplation of the question:   “Who am I?”

May your answers, or even simply the contemplation of this wonderful mystery, bring you peace, happiness, and joy!