Thursday, July 4, 2019

Fear and Death, Awe and Beauty

This contemplation arose within several meditations… 


It started out with,

“Who do think you are… when you awake…  and look into the mirror…”

What do you see… 

Do you see the surface small “s” self…  

Can you look beyond the surface… 
 
Can you look beyond the stuff you don’t like… 

Can you look beyond the stuff you do like… 

Can your look beyond the stuff that you think you are… 

What are your thoughts… 

too fat, too thin, too flawed, too critical, too accepting and giving… 

Or maybe you go too far the other way… 

Perhaps into narcissism, seeing your outer self as soooo perfect, beautiful, and smart, witty, you love how much power you have over others, and how much money you are making… 

Or, perhaps you look, and are confused… 

You do not know who you are… 

And this is disturbing to you… 

Perhaps your thoughts are cyclic and ruminating... 

Stuck in a rut… 

Like a broken record…  (who still listens to vinyl?)

Looking is important… 

Seeing clearly is difficult… 

Too critical, too narcissistic, too ignorant… 

These are the 3 basic emotions… 

Pushing away, desiring, ignorance… 

How may we see more clearly… 

Practice can help… 

You can try “The Work”

Meditation, psychotherapy, many paths… 

These can reveal…

            our hopes and dreams, and our projections and fears… 

            and the unconscious forces from which these arise… 

When you look in the mirror next time… 

Can you repeat over and over…    Stop, Stop, Stop… 

Then… 

Can you let silence arise… 

You don’t have to use a mirror… 

The mirror can be in your mind… 

Turn your gaze inward… 

Turn your entire being inward… 

Can you see Unlimited Potential… 

Can you see the entire Cosmos, shining within… 

The surface is the meat, the animal self, walking around… 

The mind of this meat is usually in survival mode… 

Preventing its own death… 

Preventing its suffering… 

This is such a small part of being… 

There is so much more to Being…  

Seeing past the small “s” self… 

Bathing in the big “S” …   Self… 

This Self, This Spirit, Animates you…

You are stardust organized by the Cosmos into a living breathing creation… 

You are here to admire all of creation…  including your self and… 

Your Self… 

Empty your cup of your fears, your criticisms, your narcissisms… 

Be aware of the Beauty of the Cosmos…  filling your being… 

There is no fat or thin, no ruminations, no desires, no fears… 

If death comes… 

That is OK… 

Death is only for the body.

What would life be, if there was just Awe… 

Awe of the Beauty of All-That-Is

And All-That-Is-Not… 

Flow with this energy… 

Allow this energy to fill your now empty cup… 

Allow this energy to direct your actions

Right Action, simply arises within this State of Being… 

Yes, there are limitations of being this meat… 

These limitations can also he held as another part of beauty…

  
Contemplating death, can allow feeling the preciousness of life…


Fear of Death

Awe of Beauty

These are not opposites

They are different levels of thought… 

Fear of Death is confining,

Awe of Beauty is freeing… 

Be free…