Saturday, January 6, 2018

The Space Between

Arose this Saturday morning, and felt disconnected…    

Realized, I have not been formally meditating recently.  Have not been getting up to sit on the cushion at 2 or 3 am. 

Well, getting up to pee.  But, then being too lazy and going back to sleep.

I have excuses…  Stayed up too late watching a movie.  Have to get up too early to go to work… 

Took a moment to feel this deeply…

Brought my consciousness down from my head into the Tanden, aka, Hara, Dantian, located 2 finger breaths below the navel, and in the center of the body. 

Breathing into this area. 

Feeling deeply the connection to the whole shebang. 

Or, as Jon Kabat-Zinn says, “The whole catastrophe.” 

What is this connection?  How does it get lost? 

Deep meditation reminds me that I am not only an individual, a “particle.”

Like the photon, I am both particle and wave. 

The “wave” part is the connection to the whole shebang… 

The Universe, Cosmos, G-d, Source, Everything-That-Is and Everything-That-Is-Not… 

That we are pure potential…

Not only part of everything, we are Everything…

Not in any narcissistic form… 

This “being alive” is created just for us as an individual, but also just for everyone else, and everything else…  (as if there is really anything… Else…)

So, when life kicks you in the backside…  Listen carefully…  There is important information being given…

Gifts.  Not often correctly recognized.  Often, not correctly interpreted, nor properly acted upon… 
(See, Rumi, “The Guest House”)

Particle and Wave…  Metaphors…  At the heart of the matter we can only speculate about any Truth to any definitions...    

This is the realm of “The Space Between.” 

As an intro, you may want to skim my last blog entitled “Soul.”

Today we will define this Space as between the “body-mind-emotion,” that place that science feels it explains fairly well, and Source, that concept, or non-concept, that science denies. 

Actually, most of science denies anything other than matter, body, and brain. 

Zen teachers tell you to ignore this Space.  Everything is an illusion. 

You can see things, get information, talk to the dead in this space.  The Zen way is to let everything go… 

Shamanic practitioners teach that this Space is as real as anything.  That is the Space to get information and to heal, defined as the Lower and Upper worlds.   The “regular world” is the Middle world (suggested reading is everything by Michael Harner). 

Frances Vaughn nicely outlines the various ways different religions and practices conceptualize this Space.   I won’t try to improve on her writings.   If you are interested, read her book, “Shadows of the Sacred,” 1995. 

I am more interested in the broad strokes of this Space. 

My own explorations have shown that this Space can be useful.  You can get information about anything you search for. 

Different, but much more powerful, than Google. 

It can be as small or as large as you wish.  You can ignore it.  Or, try to… 

However, if you resist a call from it, it will knock harder the next time, until you heed its call.   What you resist, persists… 

That is your unconscious, or one of the various varieties of the unconscious… 

This is the Space of creativity.  

When you read, the regular world may disappear, and if you are lost in this new world…  that is this Space…   

When you are writing, and you don’t know where the words come from…  that is this Space… 

Dreams arise in this Space…  learn to listen to them…  they are given to you as a gift for your continued growth… 
(see, Jeremy Taylor, “Where People Fly and Water Runs Uphill.”)

When you are in deep dreamless sleep, then “you” are resting in Source.

When you are meditating, and even the witness disappears, “you” are Source. 

Technically speaking there is only Source.  There is really no “you.”  But, the illusion of you as a “particle,” a separate individual, disappears completely… 

What a wonderful gift…  The Space Between…

Can be anything you need it to be!

Compressed into Nothingness, Expanded to Infinity…

Most of this blog concerns methods to help develop the use of this Space, see here for my brief summary:

I’ll add one more personal note on my daily morning physical practice, grounding me for the day.

My father said he did 30 minutes of exercise every morning, I never saw them, as I was never up early enough.  But, whatever he did, he lived to 103! 

After brushing, flossing, washing my face… Back in the bedroom, at the foot of my bed, on carpet, I do 5 to 20 minutes of exercise, depending on how rushed I am…

The minimum is spinning arms around, 10-30 push-ups, 30-40 sit-ups, stretching out legs backwards and forwards, standing on my head 10-20 breaths, I’ll add various core exercises and twists as I have time.  I leave the most important practice to the end:   

On my back, arms stretched 45 degrees above my head, legs flat, I start to rock my hips, then faster, it rocks my shoulders, the legs and arms move passively.  The arms and legs then rise up, like a bug on its back.  The arms and legs first move with the motion of the hips and shoulders.  Finally, I shake my arms and legs as fast as possible, until I am tired.  I then lower my arms and legs to the ground, and feel the buzzing traveling from my arms into my body (some would label this sensation as “energy,” Chi).  I lay there until the buzzing subsides.  I then get up and get breakfast to start my day. 

A note, my wife adds vocalization to this shaking.  Then again, she is an extrovert… 

I’ve written previously about my meditation, and other exercise, and practices. 

These are only suggestions.  What may work for me, may not work for you… 

Read widely, if you like…  Practice whatever methods resonate within… 

Most importantly, use your creativity!  Create your own path… 

Make good use of  The Space Between… 

Namaste





Monday, December 11, 2017

Soul

Let’s start with the Merriam-Webster online dictionary: 
“the immaterial essence, animating principle, or actuating cause of an individual life”

Hmmm…  Just really arouses the Heretic inside… 

Actually, this all came up because my wife is reading Frances Vaughn’s 1995 book “Shadows of the Sacred:  Seeing through Spiritual Illusions”  

She has this book sitting on our shelf as bathroom reading.  So, I picked it up. 

I’ve always loved reading Vaughn’s writing!  (may her memory be for a blessing…) 

Chapter 5 is:  “Awakening the Soul:  Ancient Wisdom and Modern Science”

She reviews the various definitions of soul in religions and philosophies.

I resonate with Ken Wilber’s philosophy about the structure of humans and the Universe.  

So I loved his statement in his book “One Taste,” page 34: 
“you must have noticed that the word ‘soul’ is now the hottest item in the title of book sales—but all ‘soul’ really means, in most of these books, is simply the ego in drag.” …  “thus ‘care of the soul’ incomprehensively means nothing more than focusing intensely on your ardently separate self.”  

Now Wilber does not dismiss that something might exist that relates to the word soul.   In this online article he describes the Tibetan description as it relates to dying:

“According to the Tibetans, the subjective experiences that accompany each of what are said to be eight stages of the dissolution are known technically as: “mirage,” “smoke-like,” “fireflies,” “butter lamp,” “white appearance,” “red increase,” “black near-attainment,” and “clear light.” In order to understand these terms, we need a somewhat more precise and detailed version of the Great Chain.  So, instead of our simplified version of body, mind, soul, and spirit, we will use a slightly expanded version: matter, sensation, perception, intention, cognition, psychic, subtle, causal (or formless unmanifest), and spirit (or ultimate).
 
I like the simpler model he describes of:  Matter – Life – Mind – Spirit. 

Very clear.   The first 3 levels all depend on each other.   Matter – Life – Mind. 

Matter is the most basic building block of the Universe.  And, e = mc2, i.e., matter and energy are interchangeable. 

Life is matter made animate.  Clearly a more complex state of matter.   You can’t have life without matter. 

Mind is a more complex state of life.  You can’t have mind without life. 

Simple holon theory... 

Now the terms soul and spirit makes things a bit more complex. 

I like to define Spirit, I also term this as Source, as All-That-Is and All-That-Is-Not. 

Now there starts the problem.  What do you personally define as Spirit?  How, does that differ from my definition? 

On the surface we all tend to agree on what is matter, life, mind… 

Maybe… 

Matter might be easiest. 

As long as you are not a physicist.  Otherwise, you might start arguing about string theory, dark matter, strange matter. 

Most of us would agree on what is matter and what is alive.   We can tell the difference between a rock and a cat… 

But then again, if you are a biologist, you could start arguing about whether viruses and prions are alive. 

Things really start to fall apart when we get to mind. 

So when we read Frances Vaughn’s chapter, we can see how each religion or philosophy has various different definitions for soul.  
 
Egyptian mythology had 7 souls bestowed in each person by deities at birth. 

Buddhism has a doctrine of anatta “no-soul.”  There is no unchanging self or soul. 

Shamanism is interesting as it defines shamanistic journeys as soul journeys.  Illness is attributed to soul loss.  Practitioners journey to the lower or upper worlds for soul retrieval.   

Early in my own search I went to a shamanistic practitioner, where I felt a loss of feeling in my chest.  He journeyed for me and I felt warmth filling my chest area.  A feeling of a return of wholeness.   Many years later I had spontaneous shamanistic journeys with a power animal during meditative practice.  More recently we took a formal course in journeying, deepening our practice. 

So does that prove anything about souls? 

Of course not… 

Vaughn, following Wiber’s model, postulates, page 122, “soul awakening at the psychic level of consciousness and evolving as witness in the subtle and causal levels.”  And page 124, “The soul seems to be the final identity of the separate self-sense.” 

The heretic in me says…  it is all bullshit… 

Well maybe that's a little strong… 

The space between Mind and Spirit is huge… 

No rational thought can define this gap… 

It is the worlds of religion and philosophy… 

And the worlds we enter within meditation and entheogen journeys… 

There is no clear description, it is ineffable… 

So, feel free to define it in anyway you like… 
 
Immerse yourself in the possible beauty of these experiences… 

Just don’t expect someone else to agree with your definition of that space… 

As for me… 

Perhaps it might be best just hold it in the words of Iris DeMent’s song used in the second season of “The Leftovers:”

“I think I'll just let the mystery be…” 





Sunday, October 1, 2017

Inner Wars into Weddings

Wow! 

What a great line…

“The transformation of inner wars into weddings has saved lives and propagated well-being.” 

Well, if you want more, you will have to read Michael Mahoney’s book
“Constructive Psychotherapy:  Theory and Practice.”  Page 153… 

Here I am recommending books again… 

I have learned much from books. 

And directly from living life… 

Making mistakes… 

Discussing my mistakes with people who love me… 

Sometimes, I pay them for their wisdom… 

Sometimes, my insurance has paid them… 

Sometimes, they are just gifts.

Sometimes, I am married to that source of wisdom…  

I am missing my wife this eve. 

She is off to visit family, in part... 

More importantly, she is off to do an 8-day silent retreat… 

Why are retreats important? 

They help turn wars into weddings… 

How do they do this? 

Usually, they tend to tear us apart. 

A retreat can allow us to see our wars… 

Directly experience our wars… 

Retreats are often terribly boring.

Standard Vipassana retreat =
sitting 45 minutes, alternating with zombie walking 45 minutes… 

You get very focused on when it is time to eat! 

You also get to do a 1-hour service job,

I usually tried to get a bathroom-cleaning gig… 

Introverts would rather not interact with others… 

If you have an inner war going on… 

It is going to rise up… 

You don’t have much else to focus upon… 

It is in your face… 

Whatever your inner war may be… 

You have a multitude of selves, little selves… 

Some selves may be in conflict with others… 

I have an acquisitive grasping nature… 

I only have so much money to spend… 

How do I reconcile my 2 selves? 

Sitting quietly, I can see my little selves… 

It can be very uncomfortable… 

But, looking carefully

Compassion arises

For these little selves

Crying for attention

I was never as successful as I thought I should be… 

As others, perhaps, expected this small self to be

Incorporating incompetence into self-esteem… 

That is part of the psychology of retreating… 

There is more than psychology going on

Most of us have no idea of what we are… 

Sitting in meditation… 

Experiencing entheogens… 

Shamanic journeying… 

Sometimes

If we are so graced… 

Truth can unfold… 

Deep seeing may unfold

Maybe feeling Phase Changes… 

Sometimes we are solid as a rock… 

Sometimes we are flowing as water… 

Sometimes we are as free as air… 

That is when we can flow into whatever Phase is needed at this very moment… 

Faster than light… 

We are everything… 

We are nothing… 

All-That-Is

All-That-Is-Not

Maybe all 3 Phase Changes

At the same time

Hearing, seeing, feeling… 

All drops away

Seeing through the little selves… 

Being it All… 

Being the connection between All… 

The Deep Truth

Everything is connected

To everything else

There is no separate self… 

There is only One Self

One Taste

That is the Healing

Often we have to find this

Again

And

Again

Feeling that

There

Is

Only

Now, Now, Now… 

Energized

And

Tired
 
Sleep

Arises

And

Falls

Yin

And

Yang

Laughter may arise… 

Humble before it All

Namaste