At
first this seems to be a paradox.
We
must try so hard to reach non-dual consciousness.
We
may try many paths.
Perhaps
within one or more of the 8 limbs of yoga.
Perhaps
other paths…
Yet,
to enter non-dual consciousness we must completely give up any desire for
entering non-dual consciousness.
We
must surrender completely.
From
the Bhagavad Gita:
…there
is no work prescribed for Me within all the three planetary systems. Nor am I
in want of anything, nor have I need to obtain anything--and yet I am engaged
in work.
From
Adyashanti, “The Impact of Awakening:”
Q: So why do you come and give satsang? (coming
together to support each other’s spiritual quest)
A: I have no idea. In the morning the sun rises, in the evening
it sets again. Seekers have questions,
which gives rise to the teacher and teaching.
(Later) With the dawning of liberation all
motivations drop away. One does not act
out of any reason or motivation; action simply occurs.
Examples
of complete surrender…
My
friend Rick describes his own experience in the following metaphor
(I
am interpreting here, with his permission):
It
is a huge blank wall, like a wall of stone.
I
am holding on with only my fingertips from a crack in the wall.
The
crack is slowly getting smaller and smaller.
Until
I cannot hold on anymore and I fall into the abyss.
The
abyss of no-self.
Fantastic
description.
You
can feel the fear of letting go.
But
there is no choice, the crack is disappearing.
My
own metaphor:
I
am in a woven cage. I can see the beauty
outside.
I
cannot get there.
I
lean back and close my eyes.
Floating
out of the cage occurs.
The
cage really does not exist.
It
is the fear of my ego-self, keeping me trapped.
Surrendering
completely allows floating out into the beauty.
The
beauty of no-self.
There
is no longer an “I” to float out…
I
feel the pull to be fully enlightened all the time.
But,
why?
Perhaps
Adyashanti is “There” all time…
Perhaps
Ram Dass’ guru is “There” all the time.
Whatever
“There” is…
Maybe,
like Ram Dass’ guru I’d like to see the future and to be able to predict that
35 guests were coming for lunch.
On
the other hand, perhaps we are given exactly what we need.
We
are given the evolution we need for Source to carry out whatever it needs…
We
can crave personal evolution all we want…
And
never be sure our craving is helpful for our evolution…
So
it goes…
We
have our destiny… And we have exactly
what we need…
And
we have no destiny…
Because
there is no I…
There
is always already only Source…
This
thing we call “I” is an illusion.
But,
we can still play this game well!
We
can see behind the game.
We
can bask in non-dual awareness…
Then
put back on that comfortable ego overcoat and walk in the world…
That
is the gift of co-creation.
Gain
Wisdom resting in non-duality.
Then
walk in the world practicing compassion…
Within
whatever your ego overcoat allows to unfold…
Chop
wood… Carry water…
Establish
a University…
Treat
the ill…
Establish
a new religion…
(Yes,
we need you to take up the evangelism of Integralism!)
Help
others evolve…
Or
not!
Resting
in be-ing… Allows informed do-ing…
We
must crave enlightenment…
Whether
or not we realize that we crave this…
We
must completely surrender…
Seems
like a paradox, only from the narrow view of this animal self…
There
is no paradox present within non-duality…
Namaste